My first love

The great poet's and novelists says men are the strongest ones than women. I don't say it's a wrong statement because I am not a poet or novelist to prove. But all the way I can say, They are very weak to understand the love, affection, and everything. And they are very strong to pretend ones love and they are very strong to fluctuate the opposing love hatred feel. They blush and later hide.

I am the husband of rekha. And rekha's husband name is revanth. I.e, me. Yes iam revanth one who used to hatred but now some people hating me.

In the year 2014 nov 2, when I was released from bail and walking towards to my flat suddenly I saw a girl and does squatting all the utensils she has with her. I hold her left wrist and began to twist. Her costly Bangle's split on the road. I just saw a fear in her eyes. I closely moved towards her and said who are you.

Then she said, was it was a joke? You rowdy fellow, what you did with me in the last night? By god grace I was helped by my neighbour's. Actually I supposed to record a case against you but your mother praised me. If you once again try any other girl, then I definitely record a case and hangover you.

I said, aaah I think it was some other. Last night I was at andheri.

She replied, ullu ke patte, are you still drunken? Get lost from here. And bloody hell, leave my hand.

Ohhh, I will leave for now. Common run now. Quick... I replied

Some days later, when I was puffing my 13th I saw her in the thick smoke slowly showing anger at me with the thick tight lips. I hold one girl's hand and began to puff the smoke. The girl was unable to escape from my hands. Then, she came towards me and said,

Yesterday I have warned you to not to misbehave to anyone. But you are doing like my daily assignment notes. I have called police, they will arrest you and then you realize your mistake. Good bye.

I released the girl's hand and then I arrested her wrists with my fingers. I observed a tears from her eyes. I felt happy. Then all of sudden police came and arrested me like a terrorist and treated like a mad dog. 43hours no food, applied third degree. For every, I remembered her eyes, her foolish. After releasing from prison I went to her college and began to start rowdy acts. I just tortured her for couple of months

 One fine day I decided to quit all the shits for her and wanted to marry. I went to her flat to discuss this topic with her parents. When I supposed to convince her I loosed my temper and began to shout. I don't know why I had done that. I hold her hands and began to walk. She slapped me with the branded polished leather shoes. Her father called police. I just angered at them and I slapped her father in response to her anger. 

I warned her father to accept my marriage proposal but he doesn't. I opened my knife and began to attack. Nearly 7 strikes with full of blood accumulated on the flat. Suddenly police came and arrested me and booked a case against me. I was in 5years jail for this cause. 

For every moment, I missed her. Myself treated a very brutally and tortured by drawing her eyes. I don't even know her name but I never forget her eyes and anger ness at me. My eyes are eagerly waiting to see her once but she doesn't. I turned into a brutal man. When I realised from the jail, no one there to see me, then I realized to change my attitude. I left the Mumbai city then.

Police dragon eyes were there all the time where I go. I met a true friend at Hyderabad. His name is aadhi. He works as a professor at IIT- Hyderabad.

We used to spend most of the time in the gardens. We didn't speak a single word just we go to enjoy the nature. When ever I see a red rose flower, every time I used to remember that girl. She still sprinkles her smile, blush with harsh, calmness with tears. I can say I am totally mad of her. I sometimes cry without a reason. I wanna see her right now but I never wanna go to Mumbai. I just wanna convey my foolish ness and sorry for everything I did. I think she has forgotten me. Six years, I haven't seen her. I can't express how much I love her. I really missed those moments spent with her. But life really really teach us a lesson one day. After exact a week I got a call from unknown and ask me to come city hospital. I gently ran and enquired the call details. When I entered the room aadhi was in ICU. Doctors said he just has a couple of day's to stay. I just can't believed what was happened to him. I served him for a week. After shifting to emergency block I talked him. He smiled and said I want a favor will you do it for me?

I said, yes I sure.

Aadhi said, take this letter. I have written all the details of naina. I wanna see her for the last time. Will you please do go there and convince her? Actually we both engaged but later with some disputes we broke our relationship. But I still love her. And don't say that I am suffering of cancer. Convince her and take her here. It's my last wish revanth. Will you do it for me?

I said, yes I do. And took the letter and started my journey to bring back naina.

I tried to find the address for the first three days. On fourth day early in the morning I went to talk with naina to her house. When I supposed enter naina's house I saw her. I can't control my emotions. I dropped my luggage and ran away to meet her. All of sudden some one called her naina. I gently stopped and hide. So, later I realised that aadhi's girlfriend is my love. How can I convince her I can't understand now. But, to full fill aadhi's last wish I should do definitely. I went to meet her with full of courage.

Naina has recognized me and said get lost.

For the next attempt when I tried to meet her, she called police. Hardly I escape from that.

After a long attempt's she called me and asked what iam doing here.

I gently said, to say sorry.

She replied, how you know my address.

I said, I gathered information.

Then she said, now you said sorry right, fine then leave. Don't meet me again. If you do so, once again I book a case against you.

I don't even know how should I convince her. My all paths are closed. I hardly control my emotions when she near to me. I eagerly wanna touch her wrist and see her fear once again. I can't able to sustain my feelings towards her. I once again may turns into brutal if she doesn't love me. I controlled my self so hardly.

Next day I went to meet naina at her house. She looked weirdly and say come in. Asked me to join the breakfast.

After having, we just stay for sometime talking each other. I gently said, once come to Hyderabad.

She said no way. I never wanna see that city anymore.

I said, your wantable love is in ICU. Now you come?

She slapped me and said get lost.

Early in the morning I saw naina at temple. She herself organizing homam. After completed that, I asked why you suddenly did?

She replied, in the last night dream's I couldn't able to sleep properly because of some dreams.

I can understand what she had thought. She all the night thought about aadhi. If she knew the truth I don't know how she control herself.

I just can't controlled and said please come to city hospital. I beg you I said.

She cried and asked me the reason. 

I just said, I can't tell you.

Now I am worrying about someone. Ok I will come right now with you.

I thanked god for showing the path.

Nearly for, 43 hours we hadn't went for sleep. The total hours were in journey. Next Early in the morning we reached hospital.

From the mortuary block one dead body shifting to the ambulance. I gently ran and see who was.

I gently dropped on the floor. Naina couldn't able to see him for the last time.

Even I can't control myself then how could I control naina?

We just cried and cried and cried.

We did all the formalities and split our destinations. I don't even took naina's number and she hasn't asked. My last word was bye and take care.

Naina has not replied but stood silently and moved away.

After a year, exact the same date. Naina came to attend one year death anniversary of aadhi. She hasn't spoken a single word to me. My last word was bye and take care.

My love towards her was infinite. She couldn't able to understand and visible. I don't even tell her how much I love her. My love hidden safely in my Heart. I married to a understandable who takes care of mine in every situation. Hope I return the same to her.

And tomorrow I am gonna see her at aadhi's death anniversary. I think she will not speak a single word for this time too.....